I like meeting new people. Also I need to find new thing to keep myself occupied. I spend too much time alone.I enjoy drawing and making crafts. I love TV shows like Law & Order, CSI, Cold Case, etc...I am 34 years old and i have a 15 year old son who I love very much. I believe I have done a pretty good job raising him myself ( so far). Right now I really need to build a good support system so I hope to find some great people on here!!!
i feel like when i wake up that i have so much to do in such little time and before i know it its time for bed again. I just seem like I am not getting anything accomplised during the day that needs to get done! I am very organized when it comes to writing things down, i keep a calendar in my pocketbook on my bedroom wall, in the kitchen, in my desk. so i know what i have to do. When i finsih something i cross it off. Well half of the things arent crossed off. Its like mind mind is racing and racing and it never stops! even when i sleep i feel this way. That is probably why i dont sleep. I have so much going on right now i just dont even know where to begin. I am trying to look for a new apartment, find a place for my son to have a 16th birthday party, then all the stuff that goes with planning a party, thank goodness i dont have togo to the clinic everyday anymore, I only go on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays. So that is a hugs help. I still goto groups once a week and meetings ( i try to go to) . then amuse my 15 year old son who seems right now he needs all this attention for some ungodly reason all of a sudden. When is it MY TIME?? time for me?? i just need a break? a break from everything- oh yeah i forgot my boyfriend- who now just started working 2nd shift so i hardly have talked to him in the past week and a half. due to his new hours. let alone even seen him! This is MY weekend without my son but now he is staying with me tonight because he is working and he has togo back to work on Saturday morning very early so it would just be easier if he just stayed with me then if he went to his father's. God forbid if his dad did anything except write the support check every month and take him every other weekend. HE really does NOTHING !!! If i ask for any kinf of extra help with my son forget it. so i dont even ask anymore its not worth the aggravation. plus i dont need to get myself all worked up( get all stressed about that too).
I just want to be alone- well maybe not alone- just to be able to relax, not have to do anyting at all, not to have to do anything for anyone. No one ever does anything for me. WHen do i get that special treatment?? that is what i want to know?Yeah my boyfriend treats me good but when can for once the whole weekend do what i want to do???
i just get soo frusterated , im tired of giving. i know its good to give and one day i will be rewarded in some way for the good things that i have done for people.
Well for the past 2 nights now I have been woken up I have no idea why but I am hysterically crying! Now all i remember is seeing my boyfriend that had past away on 3/3/04. And I could see him so vividly in my dreams it seemed like he was right there next to me. I guess it just freaked me out. I dont know- I guess i believe in that stuff that you can talk to the dead. I do and then I dont. I believe that he is watching over me. Like sometimes i can picture him laughing especaily when i do something stupid ya know what i mean) Like i was in the store the other day and all of a sudden I picked up a hat, and it was the exact hat that he used to wear EVERY single day. Now that was just too weird. first of all it was nt in the right department at all and second of all i wasnt even looking for a hat!It seemed like a sign. I dont know I think about him alot lately and i do miss him very very much. I just finished a grief and loss group about 4 weeks ago.We did things like physical imagery and stuff like that, it was a very difficult group for me to handle but i finished it. I didnt think that i realy wanted to but i did! like i said it brought up alot of emotions. but it was all worth it. I just wish he was still here with me.
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