HI MY NAME IS JENNIFER HOWELL, BUT PLEASE CALL ME JENNY. I AM A 50 YEAR OLD RECOVERING ADDICT, WHO HAS BEEN CLEAN AND SOBER SINCE 2001. I REALLY FEEL AS IF THE LORD HAS REALLY WATCHED OVER ME FOR SURE, BECAUSE HONESTLY I SHOULD BE DEAD. I STARTED USING DRUGS AT THE AGE OF 14 AND DID NOT FINALLY HIT ROCK BOTTOM UNTIL MARCH 2001. I WAS ON EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING I COULD GET MY HANDS ON.MY FATHER WAS A PHARMACIST SO ACCESS TO DRUGS WAS VERY EASY.. MY MAIN DRUG OF COICE WAS METHADONE AND OXYCONTIN, AND THEY WERE THE ONES WHO GOT ME TO MY LOWEST LEVEL IN LIFE.    I SURRENDERED TO GOD ON MAR.11 AND WENT TO DETOX IN WEST PALM BEACH, FLA. THRU THE HELP OF MY MOTHER. SHE WAS IN A TREATMENT CENTER AS A  THERAPIST AND WAS ABLE TO GET INTO A BED. I REMEMBER THE FEELING THINKING WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE AS I AS SO HIGH.BUT, THE DETOX PLACE WAS GREAT, THEY HELPED ME SLOWLY COME DOWN FROM ALL THE DRUGS IN ME, THAT WERE ABOUT TO KILL ME SOON. I GOT OUT AND WENT TO 90 MEETINGS IN 90 DAYS. I BELIEVE I POSSIBLY WENT TO MORE THAN 90, AS I WAS THIRSTY FOR THE SOBER LIFE. WELL, I AM A VERY GRATEFUL  RECOVERING ADDICT STILL TO THIS DAY. WHAT IS SO SAD ABOUT MY STORY IS THAT MY 23 YEAR OLD SON MICHAEL DIED ON FEB.8,OF THIS YEAR TO METHADONE AND OXYCONTIN OVERDOSE. DAMN......IT COULD HAVE BEEN ME ALSO.BUT FOR SOME REASON THE LORD TOOK INSTEAD OF HIS MOM.REST IN PEACE ALWAYS MY BABYBOY.............. <center><a href="http://www.anonymousspace.com/displayimage.php?pos=-2113"><img src="http://www.anonymousspace.com/albums/userpics/112625/SerenityPrayerButterfly.png" width="468" height="460" border="0" /></a><br />find and share recovery images at <a href="http://www.anonymousspace.com">anonymousspace.com</a></center>