Hi family,

I'm jim clean date 10/3/81 by the grace of GOD and the 12 steps. This has been a long and fascinating journey,. When I think it can't get better it does. This doesn't mean there has been no pain. Since 2004 I have watched my son go to prison twice, lost a 20 year marriage and my home,lost my 2 brothers to cancer, one sister in law, father and mother have died and moved to an area that had no NA meetings. I have overcome a form of arthritis and a heart attack in April, have bought another home on a river, become debt free and have found a new group of recovering people who love me and have supported me through this journey, have been able to retire and am enjoying recovery in a new perspective. I can tell you that death is peaceful, it's living that is the challenge. I know that it is absolutely no coincidence that I am still alive. God has me on a mission to share the love of recovery with others. I am only held back by my inability to completely trust GOD.

LOVE , jim

On November18 they put two more stents in and while in the recovery area I started having chest pains. The nurse gave me nitroglycerine and I had an allergic reaction to the nitroglycerine. My heart stopped 3 times for about 6 seconds each time. By the time the nurses got to me I had returned back to life. I am back home feeling a little rough, but am alright. If you were to die tomorrow, how was your last day here?