My name is Christina. I'm 23 years old. I started using when I was 13 and by the time I was 15, I was a Heroin addict. From the moment I got my first taste that was it. It took over every aspect of my life. I lost friends,hopes, dreams, my family, and my self respect. I ended up on the streets, homeless because my next shot was the only thing that mattered.

On May 6th I found out I was 2 months pregnant. The last time I used was May 8th. Finding out I was pregnant changed me. I devoted my whole life to my baby. I loved being pregnant and I couldn't wait for my baby to come. Staying sober wasn't even a question to me. There was no way I was going to put anything more into my body that could hurt my precious baby. I found out I was having a boy. It was finally time for me to give birth and I welcomed a beautiful baby named Adam David into the world on Dec. 7th. I fell in love at first sight and when I held him in my arms and looked into his big eyes, I knew my life had changed forever. I never knew someone so small could have such a profound effect on my life. Adam reunited my family. We all love him so much. We had so many hopes, dreams and plans for him.

At 19 days old, on Dec 26th, my sweet peanut Adam tragically died. We still don't know what happened but we think it was SIDS. My heart aches and I feel empty without him. He changed my life and now he's gone. But I can't  let his life be in vain- I feel like I need to stay sober and make my sweet Angel proud of his mommy. There isn't a moment that goes by that I don't think of Adam. I have a great family that has stood by me through everything and I love them so much, I know we will get through this together. I will Love Adam always and forever. And thanks to him, I finally love myself.

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