A man goes to a physician’s office to meet his new doctor. The man is surprised to find out his new doc is a woman. Also she is drop dead gorgeous. He cannot believe his luck.

Well she begins examining him and the longer this goes on the more aroused the man gets. During the exam she places her hand on his back and says, “Say the # 88.” So the man says. “88”. She moves her hand to his neck and says, “Say the # 88.” Well the man is getting more excited and breathlessly says, “88.”

The doctor then moves her hand to the man’s penis and once again says, “Say the # 88.” So the man swallows and says, “1, 2, 3, 4, 5, ……….”

Anyone else wonder why addicts and alcoholics tend to suffer from what I like to call the “Chicken Little Syndrome”? I’ll explain.

I was having lunch with the beautiful Dove when she mentioned that on the way to meet me she realized she was happy and it scared her. Another case in point. Last week I wrote a blog about enjoying being back to work and finding passion for my career again. I almost didn’t post it because I thought if I did bad mojo would happen to take it away.

Now my concept of God, which I call Ya, is full of grace and forgiveness. I know in my heart that He will not “punish” me. If He was vengeful I certainly would not have the blessings I have. I would be "Bubba's" doc in Leavenworth, making sure I had soap on a rope.

I thought the term “Chicken Little Syndrome” would fit. Our disease cannot stand to see us have joy in our life so it is the first one to tell us “The sky is falling”. So I believe the disease of addiction is a little chicken sh*t, hence the syndromes name. It will do all in its ability to bring us down.

It does help to recognize where it comes from but still difficult to practice at times. I know with work it will get better as I develop my “spiritual muscles”. I continue to tell myself progression not perfection. But we all know how Anal Andy can be…STFU Dove……

Ya’ll take care, stay clean, love someone, & have fun

Billy

Now I know to better than to pray for tolerance but i guess God thought I needed some. Some of the people that work here have taken ineffiecency to a new level, made it into an artform. And for "Anal Andy" ( as Dove likes to call me) it really pushes my tolerance envelope. So I am learning to smile nod and move on imagining new and fun ways to dismember people.

We all have our place in this world, for some it is swinging at the end of a rope.....hey I can fantasize can't I? I remeber hearing at a meeting I could think whatever I want...just dont't act on all of it. So I am learning to make the best of things and not go ballistic.....hey but it is fun to smash heads between your fingers.....those that did not watch Kids in the Hall may not get that so someone explain to them.

Well remember stay clean, love someone (including yourself), & have fun.

 Billy 

Well I just finished my first full week of seeing patients and I survived. Actually it feels pretty good. Some of ya’ll know I have been debating what to do with my life….stay in medicine or walk away and start a new career. Those close to me know that being a physician never defined who I was. I am not my job.

For a long time I have not enjoyed the practice of medicine…I had lost my passion for it. Who woulda thunk I would find it in the Air Force. I hafta admit takin’ care of the active duty peeps and their dependents, as well as the other folks on base has given me back a glimpse into why I went into medicine in the first place. I was finishing up my day today and thinking how things went these last few days and I found the strangest thing. I was happy with the way it had gone. That passion for taking care of people is returning.

I am so glad my Higher Power, Ya, knows better than me what I need. I am also grateful that I can be open minded at times……Dove don’t you say it…..lol. Anyhoo life is good today and all is right in Billy’s world because he is living in Ya’s world not his own.

Stay clean, love each other, & have fun peeps.

Sitting here during lunch and thought I would do some writing. Now I may get to rambling so just hang on. I will try to stay focused.I just read my Dove's Blog. For those of you who don't know her consider yourself lucky. Just kiddin'. I love her so much. I am truly blessed. For those who know her they now how lucky I am.

Some may say I can be anal. I say I am just organized and efficient...Hey this is my blog, I can have whatever delusions I want..... At work I want to stay busy but also stay on top of things. I am working as a civilian contractor for the Air Force. Those who know me know I am very patriotic and love my country. The system at the clinic at times seems to frown upon effeinency.

I ordered a lab today that takes all of 1 minute to do...seriously...and it was an hour before I got the results. I only got them then because the nurse went back to ask about it. They stop scheduling patients an hour and a half before the clinic closes. This is so we can have "administration time" to complete our electronic patient notes. I finish mine while I am in the room with the patient so I spend the end of my day just sitting around .

I'm afraid the other kids though are going to jump me in the parking lot or not want to play with me because the powers that be are starting to take notice. Oh well they can just pull on their big girl panties and deal with it.

I guess that is enough for now. It feels good to vetch. Stay clean & have fun peeps.